Tearing In My Heart....

That Tearing In my Heart, impossible to recover, impossible to heal... Gurl, I just can't forget you at all, please forgive me for that.. thank you...


''Tearing In My Heart'' by Sunny Day Real Estate(band). MSN me for the song thanks alot (:

Today(Sadturday)

Today suppose to go ACJC Fun-O-Rama but she ask me to play maple wif her, so i gave my ticket to my older sister... She buying the Fun O Rama shirt for like $50 larhhs! so expensive! but go to charity, so it's okay lor (: So i slacking at home on msn waiting for HER to come online..

Timeline:

12.23pm- On MSN, she's not online... I just miss her sooo much...

12.30pm- Got into ACS(independent) LMS network, doing maths...

1.01pm- Finished My maths, pretty easy (:

1.13pm- Doing Chinese now, Still waiting for HER. I'll wait forever just for her.

1.30pm- Finished 1/3 of my chinese, still some to go!

1.45pm- What The HELL, i have spyware on my desktop! shit! can't use anymore, now cannot use tablet and desktop! now gotta use my normal notebook com... haiz...

2.00pm- gotta go for Chinese Tuition without seeing her.. *sob*

7.15pm- Back online from Chinese Tuition on Notebook... She's still not online...

7.23pm- Back To chinese homework, my desktop is dying! It's getting mad already...

K have to focus on my homework liao... thanks for reading (:

Signing out, Douglas Lai

P.S- Gurl if you're reading this, just note that i really love you...

You make the Difference...( Not Earth Day)

Yes.... Gurl, U make the Difference in my life... You made me very different. The First Love in My Dumb Life.... I can't Live without you at all... So just think One Last Time Gurl, Thank Youss...

School Today: Coporate Tee Day

I don't like my Coporate Tee AT ALL, it's far too big! it's like Large size larhhs! But tooo Bad for Teachers la, School end at 12:00noon lol! wheezzz.. 1hour 15mins lunch !muhahahhahaha!

After School, We had our track meet, It was 33 Degrees larhhs! I heard got 1 runner got heatstroke, dunno really or not der... Oh ya! Here are Some pics of today's Track Meet :) My friends :)

That's all for Today...

Gurl I love You forever...

Signing out,

DOuglas Lai

The Lost and Damned

There's a song called ''Lost and Damned'' by Kamelot. Msn me if u want it thanks alot :)

There in Hell and back again... why? Let's see... I went to school, got reprimanded by my teacher for yesterday's incident,(check yesterday's post) and then injured my shin during street soccer... damn pain la...

For me, school is tiring and boring... and u know what?! My school ends at 2.40pm =.= then not in time to come back and talk to her... haiz... School and Love always collides... I don't mind quitting school for her if only i could... I love you dear...:)

Today's Special : The Term EMO

When you are refering to someone has being emo, you are usually are stating that they are sensitive, or have a emotional personality. emo truely is a type of music that started in the eightys and is rapidly moving back in its popularity. It's a sub genre of punk music which has grown to be more popular then punk it's self. Each and every day more and more emo bands are coming out. However, emo most commonly is refered to as a type of fashion.

EMO BANDS:

The Cure-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Cure

Sunny Day Real Estate-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sunny_Day_Real_Estate

Fugazi- Emo Punk Band http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fugazi_%28band%29

Texas is the Reason-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Texas_is_the_Reason

Jimmy Eat World-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jimmy_Eat_World

P.S: MSN me for their songs thank you :)

Gurl, I'm obsessed about YOU. I just Love You too much....

Signing Out,

Douglas Lai

Your Heart In Mine Forever

Wah laos... Today Tablet got confiscated leh so diaoss... Why? Long Story der but I'll make it short...



Song Of The Day : Beautiful Love by The Afters (msn me if u want it:) MSN me if U want Any Songs i'll send u through file transfer. Remember : ANY SONG...

The Story( btw, there's a song called ''The Story'' by 30 seconds to Mars, msn me if u want it :)

You see, during hockey practise during the March Holidays, i decided to switch of my EMO mode for 5 minutes and take 2 videos of 2 people pointing middle fingers... I then posted them on youtube. Somehow, my teacher was surfing youtube and saw my videos and hunt me down lor. then i die liao.... WORSE,later, i got a random check from my maths teacher on my tablet... And u know wat? They found this little fighter game inside i downloaded at home to play coz i wanted to quit being emo.... then tablet confiscated lor..

I getting next week back, bt then lyke dat vry sianzz... gotta use desktop liao... Then for nxt 11 weeks cannot download anything leh... so idiotic...

At least yesterday nite, see HER on msn!! SHE talk to me first somemore leh :) wheez! Wah I love HER sooo much!! *Hugs and Kisses* to HER. Love HER forever :)

Timeline:
Abt 5:00- on com on msn... on my desktop (diao)

5:00 to 5:30- Searching for Manchester United Wallpapers, gonna get every player's wallpaper!

5:43pm- She's on MSN Hooray!!!!!!!

6:03pm- SHE'S talking to me about the Singapore-Lebanon Match tonight! and asking me to watch it! wheeezzzzz. SHE'S making me love HER even more now...

7:20pm- Singapore-Lebanon Match starting! She's getting hyper! LOL... I feel so happy seeing her so happy... Gurl , you'll always be in my heart! :)

7:40pm- OH! Duric scored for Singapore! she's so happy :) Glad she is :)

7:45pm- Okay I'm going to eat dinner now :) Happy Match Gurl, love U forever !

Super Duper Emo

OKOK i know i haven't posted for very damn long, sorry sorry... I got tons of homework and church activities, not time to blog la. And By the Way, i got my tablet on monday! wheeeezzz..

Okay, I'll give u a summary of monday and sunday's stuff.

Sunday- Church Church... Easter Service. Not that bad actually, though a little plain and also a little pain coz i sprained my arm that day. Anyway had bible study too...

Monday: School and even more school it's retarted at least i got my tablet.... then had hockey practice and NTU then rain heavy still need to play so idiotic

Tuesday : The Tablet Problem:

In school tablet no battery, then gotta charge so idiotic.. only 3 hours of battery, tts vry little leh!

The maths problem:

My pen's not responding in maths class so irritating.. After all I'm the IT rap!!!!!!!! damn it!

Finally got it working after like 20mins so dumb.

Tennis Training:

Wah lao it's so draining , i damn tired liao....and i hit a ball to the top of the MPH and it's stuck there...

Well that's about it and i gotta do my homework now!

Signing Out, Douglas Lai

Sadturday...

Well it's Saturday and it's raining the wholeeee dayyy....
So sian..On msn at abt 10am, she's not online, 2:11pm, she's still not online...(sob*)Nothing much to do...

Timeline:

Abt 10.30am- Woke up late msn straight away...

12.30pm-finally got into the acs website, so idiotic...

12.40pm- Starting on Language Arts B homework... vry sian (she's still not online *sob*)

1:23pm- Finished that idiotic homwework! wheezz

2:30pm-YES! my mom had bought back lunch YES! damn hungry la..

2:30pm-3.00pm- Eating lunch, not in front of the computer

3.00pm- Oh NO!!!!!!!! i have 5 more pages of Lang Arts B!!!! SHIT... have to chiong liao...

3:28pm-She's Online!!!!!!! i'm soooo Happy, missed her sooo much... I'm not sure if I should talk to her...I don't want to disturb her...

3:39pm- Finished printing out my Lang Arts B homework... Gotta start doing!!!

4:06pm- Just remembered got Chinese tuition at 4pm ... DIAO... got to go...

Good Friday ain't that Good..

Sorry, no time to blog, just gone on msn since 2pm and off at 7:32pm. Good Friday for all christians and non christians :) love you guys man!

Emotional Breakdown and a Computer breakdown...

Sorry all people out there for not blogging for sooo long 4 days is tons of time and i know all those geeks out there 'ave nothing better to do then to go and see my blog thanks anyway:) Sorry to HER especially... I'm sorry...Please Forgive me. I beg you.


My computer Breakdown : The Story:

My computer has been damn slow for like 2 years already.. taking almost 30minutes to load up...(you can ask Yee Teng/Jonathan Lee/Hazim). So i brought it for repair, and the technician said there was 1500 malicious software in the computer (that's alot) and i got it repaired for only 20 dollars, a good deal right? and updated my RAM to 2GB for only 60 dollars, another cheap deal.
Only problem is that it took 4 days to take those viruses out, and i missed some precious minutes talking to HER .... on MSN. That's how important SHE is to me... I can Sacrifice anything for her... MSN is also a major factor to talk to her or at least see her online...

aT sCHOOL:


Language Arts A: Aaron got sent out of class,coz i think he talk to much.. AIyoyoyoyoyo, those 1.10 class GPers are all retards! They all say MS Andriany Tee is the best, which is almost true, she's my favourite teacher too:) but not to the extent that My whole class will crowd around her during recess(diao =.=''). And Somemore, their class received 10 demerit points for discussing a quiz(another diao =.='')....


After School :


Aaron Again... i pity him sia, always get in trouble one.... The IT technician caught him switching off my class camera. He got to go see my principal (DR Ong) and got 6 DEMERIT points OMG, that's alot, and one more then he'll get expelled from Anglo Chinese School(independent) then we'll all miss him sooo much. PLS dun expel him thanks alot :)


NCDCC alexandra fire station visit:


Okay that was so darn fun... That Speaker was damn sick , and his sticked his fingers between a indian man's legs! everyone was like OMG and i have a video of that coming up on youtube, please go to my youtube channel at the bottom of my blog to see it thanks:) Played with the carbon dioxide extinguisher and my friend almost got frostbite! That was FUN !


Timeline:

About 6:30pm- MSN for about 15 minutes only , coz brother got to use... Well, She's not online still...(*sob*)


About 6:45pm- Logged off... with discovering some Homework...


9:00pm-Online again, with my desktop computer, because it's finally back wheezz :)


9:33pm-She's ONLINE!!! The Best Hour of my Year !! Missed her sooo much but she does'nt seem to care either (*sob*)....I guess some hearts are indeed meant to be broken...


9:56pm- Listening to How to Save a Life by The Fray, pls msn me for the song thanks alot :)

10:02pm- I'm not sure if I should talk to her...Well, she's busy anyway, she does'nt want to waste her time talking to me although I'm always there for her...So heartbreaking....

10:05pm- Guys, please ask me for songs if you ever need any ok? (free of charge)
Delievery Period : 5 minutes(i have the song) - 2 days ( Means i Have to go and download)

Signing off,
Douglas Lai, Thanks for reading...

Mas Selamat Kastari has gone EMO!

I miss my JI network (sob*)

MSK has turned emo, i'm not sure why but he has... it's very obvious...


Evidence:------------------------------------------------------->
He looks like he misses his JI friends... awww , i pity him u know...


Timeline of today starting from 5:59m

5:59pm-half way through my ''loner'' poem... it's damn hard!
(please refer to earlier post for timelines before 5:59pm thanks:)


6:06- Oh no! i dunno what's assonance! and i haven't cut my hair yet! oh nooooooooo!!!!!


6:11- Gonna Go Cut Hair Now, haiz i hate cutting hair...


TO BE CONTINUED:

Sunday is when the Sun comes out...and emo goes away!

Sunday, my most favourite day of the week! Wheezzzz Go Church, Have Bible study wif BS leader, so meaningful and fun!

Wah lao, Wake up soooo early! like 7:30; coz BS like at 8:15 coz BS leader(anonymous) got worship practice. Wah must be very tough on him leh, yet so dedicated, wake up EVEN earlier to come to church leh! 我非常感动leh! Thanks lots :) Gervais (now not so anonymous)!

Wah lunch so sway leh, accidentaly hit chilli sauce then the chilli fly into Marcus eye leh. Wah Lao, must be very pain la! sorry Marcus, damn damn sway...

Come back msn start liao wheez!

3:40pm-Begin my routine MSN again! whoots! She's not online again.. (sob*)

4:10pm-Begin work, some literature thingy and Summary of something....gotta chiong liao!

4:30pm-Darn! printer jam! lucky print out everything liao(phew!)Listening to Behind those Hazel Eyes(remix) by kelly clarkson.(msn me for the song thank you :)

4:48-Starting the Summary liao, suprisingly easy :)

5:20-Finished Summary haha :)Starting on the literature thing now!The title is ''loner''...

Lynnie,Linnie,Lenny or Lyndon?

About 8:00- finally online again hooray! too bad she not online(haiz...)



About 8:30-Trying to persuade daniel to talk to iris bt to no avail,



8:44- Lyndon's nickname is lynnie? is'nt that new? never heard b4 leh? and zk stop giving lame jokes ty alot...and WHAT? Lynnie/Lyndon told vannesa that having sex is good? OMG well, most likely he's tried it before... so ''expert'' sia :)



8:50-Zheng Kang wants to play gunz/o2jam/uno wif me.... i'm not free , sorry







A gunz pic daniel,Zheng Kang,Zheng Zhang and myself took :) great memos

Ernty is EMO?

2:00- On MSN again! whoots! oh sooo sad :( miss her soo much)coz she's not online YET

2:10-My church frend ernest says he's emo! and that's retarded coz he plays soccer the whole day and is so enthu! that's crazy!What ?! he likes cherylyn? and btw, who's cherylyn? he whole day talk cock.

The New Phone Fad-what phone? oh the new indian phone that cost US 20 dollars! that's the most ''professional'' phone ever created. can't even sms and that's really stupid!what's the point?

2:25-got to go do CHINESE and i hate it! too bad never see her nvm.......

2:30- away from keyboard for really long... hope come back see her :)


I luv you ''hugs'' and ''kisses''

Rain Rain go away coz Emo is here to stay...

3:10pm-The freaking rain is back! hate the rain,except during hockey. for the 4th day running, no playing street soccer for me, darn it! lucky today no nid to go back to school! wheezz.

3:15pm-doing physics project till ___(damn hard la)website what shit too BUSY?! wah lao eh, no such thing one la!damn it...(listening to ''if Everyone Cared'' by ''NickelBack'')pls msn me for the song :)

3:52pm- OUCH cut my finger, really deep! arghh...now type vry slow(she's still not online *sob*)

4:44pm- Finished my physics project whoots! rain also stop! coz EMO rulez!(she's still not online I'm heartbroken awww i luv her sooo much)

5:00pm-off msn now (miss her soo much ):

The diamond of hearts defeat the ace of hearts

Today, wake up 11 sian liao, then chiong chinese hmwk (hate it!)=.= Come on MSN abt 12.30 until 5:00pm. Maybe back later... She's not online, so gotta wait for her anyways. ''waitinggggg''. my fav card in the poker cards is the diamond hearts (thus my post title). today go buy lunch wah lao so hot, get tanned lol. physics project dunno wtf they talking abt sia, hate it! want to quit school liao, everyday msn then damn shiok!



Emo section:

have been messaging her for sooo long, but i don't seem to get a reply, just makes it worst...She does'nt seem to understand, i just don't get it! but all of us have to make do with what we have, and that's what i have.... miss her sooo much ):

Emo sucks just like dog barks but we don't have a choice just like dogs...

TODAY: today hockey practice in rain damn nice! and i'm made the freaking captain whoots! wah today come back then buy three large fries, then mom scold , darn! then come back msn all the way, then try to msn her for like 5hrs bt no respond...nvm







EMO SECTION:

I miss her sooo much... but i can't force her to like me anyway... but it's impossible to stop liking her, so gotta go all the way, with this terrible feeling.but still love her all the same, always there for her...But i promised her that i'll never ever be a burden to her....



They call it: Secret Affection...

4 hours is lots of time bt i can sacrifice that for you...

Gurl, i hell shit miss you damn freaking much, sooo difficult to speak to u on msn sia, bt i dun mind waiting for 30mins for a reply, coz i luv u too much.. haiz, why have to fall for u, just ruining my own life....

Wah,today damn ''lucky'' rain rain rain like shit! raining cats and cattle sia. lucky hockey practice b4 rain come... today hockey hit my shit, i was like WHATHELL... everyone stare, i so embarrased sia, bt later laugh at myself :) come back buy 2 large fries, wah then mom scold me! darn it! then msn the whole day liao... msn's da best, then can see 'her' online bt i sent her a message abt 4 hours ago, still no reply, bt nvm, just wait for her....

love,

Doug...

Blogs can be changed but hearts cannot

My first blog posting on my third blog !!! i sooo forgetful ... lost my password of the other 2 accounts lol. many more posts coming out... pls come check ty ty lots. ''hugs'' and ''kisses'' to all you peop there

Signing off now....